Angeline Ng.

life has been a never ending roller coaster ride for me, but all that's left for me to do is to gather my courage to continue riding this life.
What I don't know is, how much strength is left to support this broken heart.

Hold on

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable." - Bruce Lee

buried deep within
Tuesday, November 27, 2012

What do you do when someone you've feelings for doesn't feel the same way? Well, what CAN you do? It's like using a white crayon on a white piece of paper, it is marked, however invisible. This undesired scenario, is unfortunately very much prominent in college life. Nevertheless, you, yourself may face this particular matter. But, what are you able to do except to accept the bitter truth, to accept that someone who matter so much to you, gives no fucks bout your existence, someone that is on your mind day and night, has someone else in theirs, someone you think that is more than just a friend, feels that it's better off as friends. That immense pain that you have to endure, alone, and not slip a word to that person; The smile you have to fake to hide your sorrow; The act you have to put up to prove that it doesn't bother you. And what's worst of all, is that, that person is your best friend.

When he says he loves you, when he says he misses you, when he hugs you, when he says something that makes your heart skip a beat, as much as you want it to be true, want him to be serious, it isn't, he isn't. And you fight yourself in the dilemma to tell him your feelings or to not to, worrying just one thing - the friendship you've built. Well, "it's either you gain a relationship or lose a friendship", you HAVE to choose.

What tops it off is that he, has a girlfriend, whom he often complaints about to you. You're now expected to play your role as his best friend, speaking up for his girlfriend, encouraging him to not give up so easily, helping him to think of ideas to enlighten his girlfriend. At this point, pathetic is probably the only word you can describe yourself, cause despite all the effort you put in, his eyes will still be locked with the sight of his girlfriend.

But, if you really love someone, you just wish them happy. :)

..... but what if they're not happy with their other half?
1:08 AM

Life, as it is.

Broken promises;
Endless lies;
Nonetheless, dramas.
When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile. :)